My thought to pass on for the day,
"If you have the power to change something you do not like, change it or else get over it"
Really want to add in a few curse words & scream it into the ear of a particular someone right now.
I mean I REALLY want to.
But instead, I've decided to pretend that person no longer exists in this world. :-)
My baby shower is just about a month away. Its May 8th to be exact. I'm not throwing it for myself, I have limited input on things. If you so choose to schedule your baby shower for the same day....the baby shower you are giving yourself for the baby coming 1 1/2-2 months after mine, its really not my issue that you may not have all of your family there. KTHNXBAI
Yes that's what words I want to pass on to a certain someone....oh nevermind, they don't exist anymore :-)
Goodness I cannot wait to be released from all restrictions so I can start working out again, it will be nice to have an outlet for all the frustrations in life....but until then, I feel sorry for whoever else decides to cross me the wrong way!
Tuesday, March 30, 2010
Monday, March 29, 2010
Church and the kids "designated areas"
I am beyond annoyed right now over something I saw yesterday at church. More than 24 hours later & its still bugging me like no other. Could be that there is lots going on in life right now & it seems like a good battle to chose because frankly, I am in control of the end result (control, me, like that idea, no way! lol)
I used to be pretty active in church. Sunday School & service almost every Sunday, participated in the choir, taught a youth class. Then I got caught up in life's challenges, and work. I haven't went to church in at least 2 months, until yesterday.
So I go in with the kids....excited to be there again. I get them signed in, arm banded, myself arm banded with matching numbers (mind you this is 3 arm bands on myself cuz wouldn't ya know we haven't figured out how to make this security system friendly to the families of more than one child) in their classrooms and I try to exit the crowd that's left standing in the doorway battling the security system. I got scolded for trying to use the other door....apparently its now an "emergency only" exit as part of above mentioned security system.
Ok, so yeah, at this point my excitement has worn off some. But I get down to my Sunday School room. I love my class, and was looking forward to seeing the teacher & his wife (oah my....anyone that knows me would think I lost my mind over that. hehe)
My teacher & his family weren't there.
Half of my class isn't there.
As I walk thru the room to sit down, I see these signs that say something to he effect of "children/babies need to be in their designated areas during sunday school"
Um ok, there have been soooooooooooo many days that I go to take my youngest to the nursery & no one is there to work. We grab a few puzzles and she sits on the floor in our room & plays during class or until someone shows up for the nursery.
I may have started a trend by doing that tho, as since that started 2 others in the class have had children and their children have often ended up in our classroom even WHEN there is someone available in the nursery to watch them.
I understand the children are distracting. I get easily distracted all the time, and I often steer the class in talks way off of our lesson for the day, I can only imagine what it was like with the others having their kids in there would have done for my attention span.
Here's my issues......
1) Mother's have quit going to church over this, because they don't want to separate from their kids.
2) I am expecting in about 2 months. And there is no way I will be ok with leaving my exclusively breast fed newborn in the nursery away from me.
As much as I do not look forward to it, I think its time to start testing the grounds at other churches........I just can't get over my baby, my tiny little baby that doesn't talk or walk (or even crawl) not being attached to my side.
So sad, but seeing as how I am still upset over this sign I saw, I'm thinking a more attachment parenting type of atmosphere is in order for Sunday services.
I used to be pretty active in church. Sunday School & service almost every Sunday, participated in the choir, taught a youth class. Then I got caught up in life's challenges, and work. I haven't went to church in at least 2 months, until yesterday.
So I go in with the kids....excited to be there again. I get them signed in, arm banded, myself arm banded with matching numbers (mind you this is 3 arm bands on myself cuz wouldn't ya know we haven't figured out how to make this security system friendly to the families of more than one child) in their classrooms and I try to exit the crowd that's left standing in the doorway battling the security system. I got scolded for trying to use the other door....apparently its now an "emergency only" exit as part of above mentioned security system.
Ok, so yeah, at this point my excitement has worn off some. But I get down to my Sunday School room. I love my class, and was looking forward to seeing the teacher & his wife (oah my....anyone that knows me would think I lost my mind over that. hehe)
My teacher & his family weren't there.
Half of my class isn't there.
As I walk thru the room to sit down, I see these signs that say something to he effect of "children/babies need to be in their designated areas during sunday school"
Um ok, there have been soooooooooooo many days that I go to take my youngest to the nursery & no one is there to work. We grab a few puzzles and she sits on the floor in our room & plays during class or until someone shows up for the nursery.
I may have started a trend by doing that tho, as since that started 2 others in the class have had children and their children have often ended up in our classroom even WHEN there is someone available in the nursery to watch them.
I understand the children are distracting. I get easily distracted all the time, and I often steer the class in talks way off of our lesson for the day, I can only imagine what it was like with the others having their kids in there would have done for my attention span.
Here's my issues......
1) Mother's have quit going to church over this, because they don't want to separate from their kids.
2) I am expecting in about 2 months. And there is no way I will be ok with leaving my exclusively breast fed newborn in the nursery away from me.
As much as I do not look forward to it, I think its time to start testing the grounds at other churches........I just can't get over my baby, my tiny little baby that doesn't talk or walk (or even crawl) not being attached to my side.
So sad, but seeing as how I am still upset over this sign I saw, I'm thinking a more attachment parenting type of atmosphere is in order for Sunday services.
Friday, March 26, 2010
Oh for the love of lists
Several years ago I was working with a counselor on my anxiety issues in an attempt to avoid medication. I made the mistake of allowing my husband to tag along to a few appointments, with the intent that he could help me remember to bring up some questions I had for the counselor & also help me remember the ideas she had for helping to control the situation & then help implement these changes at home.
To this day, about 8 years later, my (now ex) husband will not let me forget what the counselor had pointed out.
List making is an OCD tendency that I hold and that I am a control freak.
I love lists. I love making lists. I love them very very much. This is probably the reason I did so well in the Write on Illinois essay writing program we used in school. The essay was essentially just a fabulous list, in outline order ( I love outline order too!!).
Anyhow, lets fast forward to now. I haven't made many lists since I seperated from my (now ex) husband. (Maybe he was the cause of some areas in my OCD/anxiety ridden state????) But today I am sitting at my desk at the office. I am thinking about how maternity leave will go for my boss and I realize.......I get to make a list. Oh wait, not just one list, but a list of lists I can make. And then the lists themselves. Lists of things to be taken care of while I'm gone, for the boss and her brand new, untrained helper.
Oah My Goodness......today I am in heaven!!
To this day, about 8 years later, my (now ex) husband will not let me forget what the counselor had pointed out.
List making is an OCD tendency that I hold and that I am a control freak.
I love lists. I love making lists. I love them very very much. This is probably the reason I did so well in the Write on Illinois essay writing program we used in school. The essay was essentially just a fabulous list, in outline order ( I love outline order too!!).
Anyhow, lets fast forward to now. I haven't made many lists since I seperated from my (now ex) husband. (Maybe he was the cause of some areas in my OCD/anxiety ridden state????) But today I am sitting at my desk at the office. I am thinking about how maternity leave will go for my boss and I realize.......I get to make a list. Oh wait, not just one list, but a list of lists I can make. And then the lists themselves. Lists of things to be taken care of while I'm gone, for the boss and her brand new, untrained helper.
Oah My Goodness......today I am in heaven!!
Wednesday, March 24, 2010
THE first entry.... an introduction of sorts
Writing has always been a form of personal therapy for me. It gets out all of my feelings without interruptions, without judgment, without criticism, without pity from who-so-ever I would otherwise be talking to.
I have slacked in my writing over the last year or two, I have lots of things -- good & bad -- that I have bottled up inside and its now ready to explode in this crazy time of extreme hormonal takeover.
So let's begin with the basics....
ME:
My name is Danielle, although in pure laziness I usually sign off as "D"
I am mother of three beautiful, adorable, intelligent children -- H, C, and P -- and am expecting one more -- M
hmmm....yeah, that's me....not much more to say yet, that would defeat the purpose of the blog :)
I have slacked in my writing over the last year or two, I have lots of things -- good & bad -- that I have bottled up inside and its now ready to explode in this crazy time of extreme hormonal takeover.
So let's begin with the basics....
ME:
My name is Danielle, although in pure laziness I usually sign off as "D"
I am mother of three beautiful, adorable, intelligent children -- H, C, and P -- and am expecting one more -- M
hmmm....yeah, that's me....not much more to say yet, that would defeat the purpose of the blog :)
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